gagging to move out

i really think i want to try illustration but i do not have anything new to bring and this is what stops me from doing things. my lack of originality.  i also want to try film making of some sorts. last night mr mac gave me a challenge for next year to make a film or moving image type thing and he will help me get it projected onto the outside of the usher gallery (lincolnshire’s national gallery) which would be totally amazing and i would like that so so much, but i cant possibly think what i would make or why anyone would want to watch something that i have made because everything has been done before and nothing is new so what can i possibly bring to the table?

should not have done that

i do not think that men can love

i’m having a bad day and i’m quite sad but i feel really good about how i look today. i think my face is nice with my shorter fringe and i wore a big paisley shirt and i think it makes me look arty and cool (maybe not cool)

can life just not right now

my bedroom is literally the ice kingdom right now. why.

i am sad

is there any way to make 8 weeks literally go faster because i really need to get laid. like some kind of time travel or something i dont know?

i expressed my hate for greenday and lost 2 followers, is there no justice in this world?

sexual frustration will be the death of me i swear

i wish i was having sex right now but instead i am not having sex right now.